Successful day!

Hello friends!

Today I’m grateful for being able be silly and laugh.

Recap on goals for today – 3 outta 3, friends!! Feels great! My eating was right on track. It wasn’t easy AND I did it anyway!

I’m kind of freaked out about something I’ve decided to do! It involves RUNNING! *gasp*

Goals for Saturday:
– Stay on task with food
– Get a workout in at the Y
– Work on blog a bit

It’s been a super long day and I’m pooped! I will write more tomorrow.

Until next time,

Sarah

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May 27, 2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Made it to Thursday!

Hello friends,

Here we are – made it through another day! Today i’m grateful for lovely friends who help me laugh, see things about myself that may need changing, and are unconditionally around.

I will recap my goals I listed yesterday:

– Stick to food plan as written: Made it through my afternoon snack. I even made it through dinner….until dessert came. Today is my mom’s birthday and I ate a piece of celebratory cake. I knew I shouldn’t have and I decided to anyway. What’s important to me is being honest about it. And, of course, trying again tomorrow!

– 15 minute walk : success!! I brought my walking shoes to work, a pair of socks and went! Woo hoo!

– Y membership : I did not accomplish this. No excuses. I didn’t do it. Anxiety got in my way.

I am off for the next four days. This is both a blessing and a challenge. The structure of the work day won’t be there which makes things a tad difficult. I do have the luxury of sleeping in, slowly waking up and making my meals.

It was quite an interesting experience bringing my own food to my mom’s birthday celebration! My family isn’t an easy place for me to be “different”. When someone doesn’t follow status quo, it gets noticed. There are often comments and questions. It makes it challenging. I also know it’s not going to be easy to walk down this road. There will be questions, comments and talk.

In other news: I weighed in today. As my starting weight. I’m about 15 pounds under what I was at my highest and about 15 pounds more than I was back in December. I will weigh in weekly and post my progress.

Tomorrow I will spend some time with my niece. I’m excited to get to see her and spend time alone with her! She’s such a lovely girl!

My plans/goals for tomorrow:
– Stick to food plan EXACTLY as written. No additions & no subtractions
– Take 15 minute walk
– Go to Y & straighten out membership

I am looking forward to a break from work. I plan on making the most of my weekend and enjoying myself – I am reminded it’s a process. A process full of learning!

Until next time,

Sarah

My inspiration 🙂

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May 26, 2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Head barely above water

Hello again world,

I’m most grateful to be upright and functioning today.

Wednesdays at work are my longest and most difficult days. I work 12+ hours and play about 4 different roles throughout the day. It’s also my most difficult day to keep on my food plan and focused on my recovery. Generally when I plan well, bring all my food needed for the day, I can get by. On days like today, where I didn’t plan or prep food in advance, it’s a whole different story. I chose not to eat all day as opposed to eating “crap” food. Which is worse? I’m sure there’s data to say one or the other. In my life, choosing not to eat is as bad for my body as choosing (or unconsciously) binging. I need food to fuel my body and mind.

I’ve set my alarm about 15 minutes early for the morning to ensure I have plenty of time to throw together my food for lunch and dinner (Thursdays are another long day! Different reason – different post) 🙂 I’ve planned all of my meals, including my snack for tomorrow. I plan on sticking to it. The best way I know how to do that is to plan, plan, plan!!

I struggled with huge feelings of anxiety today. Anxiety around things that are totally and completely beyond my control. I’ve done a lot of “work” (read: therapy) around this and continue to struggle on almost a daily basis. It is mostly around work and am in the process of making things easier for myself.

Plans for tomorrow:
– stick to food plan as it’s written
– go for 15 minute walk on break
– go to the Y on my lunch and straighten out membership

I have tomorrow to get through and then have a 4-day weekend! I’m super excited about it!

Until next time,

Sarah

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May 25, 2011. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Starting on the long road

Hello world!

Here I am – starting down THE road. Which road is this? You may ask – it’s the road that will take me away from being out of breath when climbing up stairs, the road which will allow me to comfortably ride in anyone’s car, the road which will allow me to have choices in the clothes that I wear and the road which will lead me away from the early death that is impending should I choose not to travel down it.

Let me introduce myself! I’m Sarah. I’m 25 and have been overweight a majority of my life. I work in the social service field, plan on going back to school in the next year and love sleeping! I’m quiet and introverted as much as I’m loud and extroverted. I have attempted weight loss in many different fashions; Weight Watchers, Sweatin’ to the Oldie’s with Richard Simmons, calorie restriction, purging, “medical” weight loss – you name it, I’ve probably tried it. I’m in a place now where I am beyond looking for a quick fix. There isn’t one and I know that. I’m in it to gain my life back by losing this excess weight.

Oh and the weight. It’s a lot. I’m not going to pretend that I just have a few extra pounds to lose. I literally need to lose a whole person and then some. We’re talking in the 200lb range. Scary to put that out there.

I’ve been inspired by many blogs, I’ll have them up in my ‘blog roll’ as soon as I figure out this WordPress deal 🙂 I’m using my blog as a way to keep myself accountable and to truly be honest with myself and other people.

Looking forward to getting to know other folks, have you follow my story and follow yours back!

That’s it for now,

Sarah

May 25, 2011. Uncategorized. 5 comments.

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